how the FUCK did i get like this

Reaching depth of clarity
I'm not supposed to be like this
I should be on the top of the world
Is anybody out there like me?

I followed something's missing
Self control Forcing me down
Whispers consume the air
Above her I'm endless

When the rain comes falling
I'll freeze I'm so afraid
When things start to flood me
I will drown in seconds

Fear - There's a way out
Touch of red
Break away
Nothing has it all
Bury the place I've been
I fear there's a way out

As If I ever had a choice
All in the hands of the energy
Once again feel the quicksand swallow me
Tonight =I wont struggle

Fear - There's a way out
Touch of red
Break away
Nothing has it all
Bury the place I've been
I fear there's a way out

The weak in me should know I'm as sober as I could be

Fear - There's a way out
Touch of red
Break away
Nothing has it all
Bury the place I've been
I fear there's a way out

In Flames - Touch of Red

I am stunned, you caught me by suprise
It's so damn wrong, you outdid yourselves
Beaten numb, I didnt see you sneaking round the corner, how could I?
There is no sight in my other eye

When I'm done I will hunt you down
One by one I'll blow you all to hell
For you faceless, nameless, cowards, cannot hide
The day you break me will arrive

Strike from behind and knock me to the ground
Kick me while I'm down, stab me in the back, you bastards
Tear my heart out of my chest
I rise from the ashes, from these ruins of mine, from the rage
I'm right on your track you bastards
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine

I have dreams of hammering your skulls
Fantasies of bashing in your brains
Obsessively I am watching, I am stalking, I am following
And then the massacre begins

Strike from behind and knock me to the ground
Kick me while I'm down, stab me in the back, you bastards
Tear my heart out of my chest
I rise from the ashes, from these ruins of mine, from the rage
I'm right on your track, you bastards
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine

Strike from behind and knock me to the ground
Kick me while I'm down, stab me in the back, you bastards
Tear my heart out of my chest
I rise from the ashes, from these ruins of mine, from the rage
I'm right on your track you bastards
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine
Dozen of eyes for an eye
Vengeance is mine
Vengeance is mine


Vengeance is mine - Sentenced

I'm very very bored. Again. I apologise.


1. My uncle once:
Danced around the room pretending to be my nan looking at shiney things. heh.

2. Never in my life have I:
... seemed to do anything important right.

3. The one person who can drive me nuts, but then can always manage to make me smile:
lol Jason.

4. High School was/is:
not in britain (danns answer, not mine)

5. When I'm nervous:
I bite my nails. Or smoke.

6. The last time I cried was:
Earlier. I've had a bad day. (but its better now. I have shotties and larger and family guy)

7. If I were to get married right now my bridesmaids/groomsmen would be:
lol, uh... Ross, Sam, Becca annnnd I've run out of people. I'm not sure if I should mention Jason or not?

9. My hair:
Pisses me off.

10. When I was 5:
... I was younger than I was now?

11. Last Christmas I:
climbed out of the window at like 11 in the morning to get away from my family.

12. When I turn my head left, I see:
Manson... YAY.

13. When I turn my head right, I see:
the whole of the rest of my room.

14. When I look down I see:
my legs.

15. The craziest recent event was:
...now... when you say crazy... I dont know what you mean. So, we leave it.

17. By this time next year:
I'll probably have done achieved nothing, lost a whole lot and be doing the exact same thing as I am now.

18. Last night:
lol, I came home, watched Hollyoaks, had a smoke and played mario party. watched the angry beavers and fairly odd parents. went to bed. (all such important things that i couldnt leave any of them out, hense the list - and explanation)

19. I have a hard time understanding:
when more than one thing is happening at once quickly.

20. One time at a family gathering:
I got paraletically drunk on cream gin or some crap, with some random people in the park, ended up hitting my uncle and waking up the next day with a babysitter lol.

21. You know I like you if:
I'm willing to give/lend or - otherwise spend money on - you.

22. If I won an award, the first person (people) I'd thank is:
I wouldnt win an award. If i did it would be like "worlds biggest mistake" or something... in which case id start off by stating that my mum should really get the award.

23. Take my advice:
dont listen to me.

24. My ideal breakfast is:
a shottie

25. If you visit my hometown:
you'll be bored out of youre mind

26. The place I would visit anytime soon would be:
nowhere. i want to stay here. i like it here. *rocks*

27. If you spend the night at my house:
you'll probably be stoned

28. I'd stop my wedding if:
i wanted to

29. The world could do without:
oh I could make a list! But I wont. but the first thing that come to mind is emotional pain. that would be good.

30. I'd rather lick the belly of a cockroach than:
i dont want to answer. it sounds stupid.

31. Most recent thing you've bought yourself:
grape and apple panda pop and a boost. WOOT!

32. Most recent thing someone else bought for you:
I think my grandparents bought me a bar of marzipan... it was on my bed... i think thats where it came from.

33. My favorite blonde is:
I honestly honestly cant think of anyone.

34. My favorite brunette is:
why are these things actually important? does anyone actually read these things? If you read this... leave a comment telling me you did... I'm going to conduct a survey.

35. And by the way:
I'm really wasted

36. The last time I was high:
If now doesnt count then... this morning.

37. The animals I would like to see flying besides birds are:
pigs... meh

38. I should have been:
in mexico a long time ago? I dunno.

39. Once, at a bar:
i got thrown out for drinking my own straight tequila... well that was a pub, but I dont remember anything happening in a bar.

40. There's this girl I know who:
has an exploding panda

41. This guy I know:
is a complete prat

42. A better name for me would be:
I dunno... how about 0

43. My birthday is:
January 1st. It's not as great as it sounds.


Well.. I got bored with that halfway though... I'm done. Dont forget... The survey!!!!

I know its long, but I don't care. I can't find anything else that even comes close.


Bleed for my pain
Revenge on treacherous snakes
They will pay

Slicing the flesh
Sculptured wounds my catharsis
I will stain

Into the heart
Needle injects gasoline
Convulsions

The one that they betrayed
Has made them this way

Plagued by the bastards
I will kill you
Killed by my rage

Scream at my face
The grisly scars went unavenged
Until now

Deep in the hole
You are not gagged and scream aloud
But unheard

Choke on your vomit
You watch your hands cut off
Then your legs

The one that you betrayed
Will kill you this way

Scarred by the bastards
I will kill you
Killed by my rage
I must kill you

Into the throat
The scalpel slices
Warm blood sprays out
The gushing entices

Pull out your heart
And let you watch
Shove in your mouth
Then stab your crotch

I watch your agony

I am released
From years of pain
Your death averted
My becoming insane
You are dead

I have killed you


Cannibal Corpse - I Will Kill You